Am I a freak for having these feelings?

I'm female and 22. For some time I have been having ual thoughts about children. Its not specific ones, or even children in general. I read a story (fanfiction) online a few years ago where a young boy was a slave to an older man. Since than I have been by the thought of young boys with older men. I can't stand the thought of it really happening, I read a non-fiction about a boy being abused and it defiantly did not arouse me. I just like the idea that the younger boy would be powerless, and inexperienced. I've read lots of fiction that has these kinds of relationships, and even fantasize about it. I have never looked at kiddie , though I have been tempted, just to see if it does arouse me. I am worried this means I will someday be a craapy pedophile. Help!